Found All I've Lost

Why must we go to school?
Why must we do well?
Why is life so difficult?
Why is school so difficult?
Why is life like that?
Why did i fail Dfund?
Why am i going to fail Biochem too?
Why must life go on?
Why can't we go back in time?
Why can't freeze at the prefect moment?
Why did turn from me?
Why didn't i do anything before?
Why am i only regretting now?
Why did i even admit from the start?
WHY WHY WHY?!

Current Mood: annoyed

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOVEMBER BABIES!!

Here's a very happy birthday to all the november babies who i know.

Anyways back to me. I'm chosen for OTC! YAY! Life is finally working right for me for the 1st time. can't wait to go but can't remember when is the briefing. So, if you somehow know the date and time, kindly tell me. (:

Christmas is coming soon. Got my present yet? Your present is on the way to the mail so just kindly wait for it.

P.S : If it gets lost in the mail it's not my fault. d:

Current Mood: drunk

There are a few things i regretted this year. Starting with the very most recent.

1) I regretted messing with my new phone and sending it for the repairs the very next day i got it.
2) I regretted saying it to her.
3) I regretted admitting i liked her.
4) And last but not least, the biggest regret of the year, i regretted falling for her.

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Sleeping with the lights on - Busted

Haven't got the mood to blog ever since the last post. Lost the mood even more because of monday. Stuff happened on monday and swear i regret it happened. For more details(if you wanna listen) please call 1800-drop-me-a-text. Really hope our friendship doesn't screw up because of my stupidity and harsh actions. A day then i will defintely want to forget completely and restart. hope i have a time machine right here right now, then life wouldn't suck so bad.

Socio class was fun, a 2 hour lecture completed in 1 hour. Didn't the ideal group mates but the group is still nice but could be a lot better. Hoping that lecture tomorrow will be a fruitful one. Oh and also hoping that psps will be fun, apparently it's game day for psps. Anyways, good luck to everyone out ther is what ever life gives them and grab every single opportunity at everything. Waiting is the last thing you should ever do. Peace to all. (:

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Fight For This Love - Cheryl Cole

Second day of school and i'm bored but still wanna go to school. Math teacher has curtain like hair which looks like a wig and pronouns answers as anso. I'm serious no joke. She has a accent which sound fake and very entertaining. Miss the holidays but miss someone even more. God knows what i'm suppose to do. Feeling messed up right now. Got to crash soon starting at 8 tomorow. Nights to all, peace out.

Current Mood: tired

Today is the start of my 3day jail term at home. 2 more days to freedom which will also mean the start of my work again. Don't want to complaint (even though i already started) work is boring. Can't go out anytime soon so the next time i might meet any friends will be 13th? Can't wait for the chalet even though i have no idea what will we be doing for 3days 2nights. Oh well... just have to wait and see.


I'm going to be really bored for the next 2 days being stuck at home doing nothing. Need ideas to stay entertained at home. Anyone?

Current Mood: bored

i've been sick since like 2weeks ago and it sucks. Got to go work and can't go out with friends. I want to go out and play, chill, joke with friends all over the place instead of working and "resting" at home. I want chalets and bbqs. Stay over at someone's house or something. A movie session will be good too. Actually, everything else is more fun then working and being stuck at home. Feel like just going out for a drink with friends just to talk and laugh about. Right now i just want to get well and get over and done with with work and start school so i won't be home that long.

Current Mood: crappy

The holidays started good for me. But as time flew by day by day, it started to go down the drain. It rose back up to heaven one day but fell into the bottomless pit the very second we parted ways. There was the trip to Mind cafe too which was fun and ended up forming names with alphabet card when the time was ending, went to meet tty to go seoul garden to pay back yong's birthday present which he again insisted was not nessesary.  Went to Comex(IT Fair as i call it) with the kidos and IT gang and ended cabbing home with a printer which my sister needed and felt stupid dragging it to Carl's Junior. I got a job in parkway at a little cafe called The Caffebar. They have really good desserts and is a really good place to seat and talk over a coffee or cake and according to yong, it's a good place for guys to do girl-watching.

Now, time for the sad story of my holidays. I've got to work for a average pay with a enormous workload. But it is not always busy, thank god, it gets quiet which makes it good to lepak. Work gets boring after awhile and the worst is that there is no music and i have to stand for the entire day. Oh, and i screwed up at work today, i dropped a glass of frozen magarita  on the floor and it spilled on a customer and into his coffee. But luckily, he was nice and didn't mind. But on the upside, i finally had the chance to walk 2 whole minutes with $3000 in my hands. It was for 2 short minutes but it felt good to be rich for once.

It's time to leave my little fantasy world of dreams and return to the cruel world of reality. Feeling weird not getting to text her, i've got to get by this few days. Oh, and have fun in cambodia jess, try not to set off any landmines. (:

Off to continue watching HIMYM bye all. (not like anyone reads this)

Current Mood: okay

Today will most likely to be my last day on earth. It's not cause I'm going to kill myself to be some lame ass slayer but cause i got my results TODAY at 11.48a.m. So, today at about 6p.m, when my mum returns home from work, it will be my death sentence cause i got 2As, 1B+ and 3 god damn it Bs!!!! LIKE WHAT THE HELL LAH! 3 F***ING Bs lah. That's like DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN BAD LAH. So if i don't return calls or text messages, update my blog and facebook, appear online on msn, be sure to be at my house void deck to see me for the last time. Nice knowing all of you and i really enjoyed all the times we had. LOVE YOU ALL!

Current Mood: cold

I finally got back my computer!!! Now i wish the holidays were longer and i had no job. I just came back from work which was quite tiring today. Last nights work was a breeze and the 5 hours i worked last night was as long as the first 2 hours of work today. I was close to running in work. But all in all, work was fun and i hope it will remain fun.

Current Mood: bouncy

Today would be in fact the best ever day in my short but fun poly life. We started playing truth or dare and i got to kiss yj on the cheek. I also got to know something about a certain classmate that i didn't expect to find out. Had lots of fun today watching people going to random lecture halls and shouting hello to everyone in it, having a fake proposal, dancing, see a failed attempt to sabotage, and many more rubbish. Hope more of such rubbish can happen more often. Cheers to I902 :):):)

Current Mood: excited

Ever since we got in to poly life, it seems that life took a unexpected turn for the worst. Things started to happen, friendships was inches to being lost and people are most of the time upset. Will all this happen if we never grew up? Will life be less harsh if we were all still back in kindergarten? If the answer is yes, i wish with all my heart that time will freeze when we were back in kindergarten so we will be happy and having the time of our lives not knowing the dangers of reality.

I'm missing the holidays not only because it's the holidays, but the fact that i get to just sit back and relax and just take life as it comes on to me. I'm felling horrible and life isn't helping. i just need the a break from everything in the world, get lost in some random undiscovered island and chill off while i lay back and watch life run over every other person who it come across. I really need a long stress free break till life gives up hunting me down for my blood. Hope that HAP test tomorrow is as easy as Mr Tai says it is. Time the get back to the struggle i took a short break from. Time to face the most cruel thing on the face of the Earth. LIFE.

Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: No Surprise - Daughtry

My sister need to have a computer for the NIE. They will be giving her one, just not in the 1st semester. Bye bye computer, i will miss you when your gone.

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

Holidays is SO awesome. I'm NOT bored this holidays. I enjoyed the zoo trip and the movie. I'm ENJOYING the time i take to type this. The holidays CAN"T get any better. I SUCK at sarcasm. I HATE, HATE poly life. I can't adapt to the change, or am i the one who changed??? Did i change? If i did feel free to correct me. Really need to learn how to be a better person. I'm willing to change, well i hope i can change. What's up with the word change anyway? it sound funny when you use it so often. Change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change, change,change. OKAY, I'M BORED WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: bored

Finally school's out, whoo..... Friday was the start of my 2 weeks + 1 day holiday. I can finally go out and play. Many things i want to do but i either, 1, have no money, 2, have no one to accompany me to, or 3, to scared to do. Many things changed in the past term. everyone made new (friends, everyone tried new things and everyone has their own point of view on everything around.Not trying to judge anything but some people(to me) overreact over minisicule things. And maybe people did thing out of curiosity. In fact, everybody do things out of curiousity. Everyone did something wrong before, but we won't repeat after trying it once and know it is bad for you right? One man meat is another man's poison, if you like or want to try something, to someone else it is a taboo. everyone have their taboos but others still try and carry such things out, why? Cause they are curious and after trying, the feeling would deter them with out you pointing out the bads. It's right to help friends identify the  errors in each others actions but if they don't listen, it up to them, not you. We are friends, not parents. We can't force friends to do thing against their wishes. Everyone makes mistakes without them knowing. But friends and help to change them.

Current Mood: drained

The truth is that....... I'm going lose my GPA of 4.0 whooo............ Can't get the information through my thick skull... Damn it... Well, at least i will still have fun right? Good luck to all having ro going to have their term test soon. Don't be like me and blog on the night before term test, really bad thing to do....

Current Mood: crappy

I miss having my maid walk me to PAP and facing the wall with ezra in kindergarten. Those were the days when school was fun. Done a lot of rubbish back then then even now i still can't forget. Then time past and Primary school came, made a new friend ,Louis, on the very minute i entered school. I can still remember me crying on the first day of primary school. Really funny thinking back now. Missing the coloring books, playtime, nap time too. Primary school was memorable too, made really awesome friends back then. School back then was a game for most of us. Not many of my clique studied much, hence the gang in secondary school. The best class i've been in in primary school has got to be 3/4. the teacher was awesome, the classmates were awesome, that whole school term was awesome. Primary 4 was the worst for tty i guess, getting caning almost everyday, sucks for me even to see people get caning, afriad then one day it would be me. But then Primary 4 went by and primary 5 came. Can't really remember much of Primary 5, i guess nothing much happened back then. Primary 6 was the funny time, we had math daliy questions to do, which was a math qeustion everyday. Remember tty saying, next time you grow up become taxi driver then fetch mrs pung( our math/form teacher) she will ask where is your math daliy question. It was funnier when he said it back then. Soon PSLE came and passed. Scored 200 cause i was playing the Gameboy the day before PSLE. Had no choice but to go Ngee Ann Sec. But it was a wise choice. Made the most awesome friends in secondary school. Secondary school was the 1st time i cheated in a test and got caught, ran around the unfinished part of school, and many more rubbish. Still remember entering Sec 3 and hating the 2r7 people sitting at the back cause the knew the teacher and they were super duper noisy. But it turns out then some of them are the people i hang around with now in poly. If i could re-live my life i will never change it. Up till the poly part, maybe cause i'm still not that familar with the change yet. But, i'm willing to give myself time to adapt to the change. Hope the poly life will not disapoint me. A good 3 years ahead of me ready to give me the time of my life. Will i be recieving it with open arms? i hope i will. Poly life here i come. (:

Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Forever & Always - Taylor Swift

Suppose to be studying for DFund quiz tomorrow but i'm too lazy to. So, i decided to blog instead. Really wish i could go out again. Feels like prison going home right after school everyday.... Just want to break free of the shelter my parents are putting over me. God knows when this is ever going to stop... Goinng to try it soon again. Hope that forget soon. XD wish me luck...

Current Mood: bored

Today is the day where my sister and me officially launched our blog shop. It is called that little glamour girl. The link is http://thatlittleglamourgirl.blogspot.com/ . Do drop by and have a look, buy an item or 2, leave a comment on the improvements we can make and enjoy the shopping experience. Do tell your friends about the shop.